24 Replies to “Your Thoughts & Memories”

  1. The slide show is a beautiful and touching tribute to Jacob… the entire time I watched it I could feel the LOVE you have for Jacob in every photo. I am so sorry that SUDC has struck your family, I am so so sorry.

  2. Today is another sad day. It has been two months now. I miss you ever so much. You brought such joy to our families and my heart just aches. You enriched our lives and gave us something to look forward to each day. We had so many wonderful times together and I miss that very much. I know not why you were taken from us but I have to believe that you are in a better place, that God has his arms about you and you are as happy as you were on this earth. I see that smile on your face, your big bright brown eyes shining wiith happiness. Someday I will ruffle your beautiful head os hair and hug you once again. Love , Grandma

  3. What a beautiful little boy you had. i’m so sorry for your loss and can’t imagine how much you must be missing him.
    God help you and your family in this difficult time.
    if every child would be as loved as your Jacob was the world would be a better place.
    rest in peace little angel god bless

  4. Jacob was a very handsome little boy. His big brown eyes remind me of my son’s. I lost my 10 1/2 month old son to SIDS in May. I’m sorry you have to live with a broken heart and empty arms. Wishing you peace.


  5. I am so sorry for your loss. The slideshow was beautiful as were the letters the family wrote to your little boy! My best friend lost her 16 month old son to SUDC January 29, 2008. We are all so devastated by this tragedy. We had never even heard of SUDC! My thoughts and prayers are with your family! I am goign to try to get her to make a page for him so she has a place to share her story and can meet people that are going through the same thing as her.

  6. Hi Kim,
    I got your email today and I just now watched the slide show of your beautiful son Jacob. It is so hard to say in a few typed words how deeply I feel your loss, how sorry I am, and that I understand the depth of your loss; but I so. Through our connection I know that Melissa will be there in heaven taking care of little Jacob. She is an Auntie now, but not here to enjoy that role – perhaps she will be Jacob’s Angel Auntie. He is so beautiful Kim, my heart just breaks for you.
    Much love, Moneca

  7. I came across your website for your precious Jacob – what a wonderful way to memorialize your child! I’m so sorry for your loss. My name is Stephanie, and I lost my 10-month-old son Jacob to SIDS in January 2007.

    My reason for contacting you is to see if we could help – my husband and I started a non-profit organization earlier this year whose mission is to reach out to newly bereaved SIDS families with information and support. We mail materials to families at various times throughout the first year after the loss in hopes of offering a little comfort. Like I said, we’re a non-profit organization, so it’s all absolutely free.

    If you’d like, please take a moment to visit our website: http://www.tinyhandprints.org, then click on the “Survival Kit” link. If you’re interested in receiving some information, please let us know. At any rate, we just wanted to let you know we’re here. You may contact me through the website, or via e-mail at Stephanie@tinyhandprints.org.

    Our deepest condolences on your loss of baby Jacob.
    Stephanie Williams

  8. Dearest Jacob,

    Today, all the family is getting together on your 2nd Birthday to have your favorite dishes – pizza & cake.

    Grandpa & Grandma miss you very much and think of you everyday.

    Hugs & Kisses & lots of Love,
    G. & G. Heit

  9. Dear Kim,

    I hope what I want to say comes out the way I would like it to.

    This is a wonderful tribute to Jacob. I have been touched by all the photos and memories that you and your family have shared. Even though I never met Jacob, he is clearly having a positive influence on me.

    Words cannot begin to express the sorrow and sadness I feel over your loss. I sincerely regret that I was unable to be there for you.

    I believe that we were somehow meant to cross paths again.

    Your loss is teaching to me to seize every moment. We cannot live for yesterday or tomorrow – only today. I need to make the most of today.

    I extend my sincere condolences to you, Kerri and your parents. I also extend the same thoughts to your husband and his family.

    It is absolutely clear how much you all loved and adored Jacob. The way you have all come together like this… to share and recall together… I am humbled and honoured all at once.

    Rest in peace, little Jacob. Your spirit continues to touch the hearts of many.


    Elan Olson

  10. Dearest Jacob,
    It is nearly a year since you left us. It doesn’t get any easier. My heart aches and the tears flow too easily. I can not describe how much I miss you. I just hope and pray that you really are in a better place, that Great-Grandpa is there with you and that you are all playing with your tractors. Not a day goes by that I don’t remember your little grin, your beautiful smile, your cute face and your wonderfully soft hair. I remember your curiosity, your strength and your determination. I remember your sounds , your signs and your energy. I wish I could spend one more day with you. Some day I hope we will be togther again and we can play and read and run around making funny noises. Where ever you are I hope you can feel my hugs and kisses. Love Grandma K.

  11. Thinking of you all at this time.

    With love,


    Inner Tempest Stilled
    By Beenie Legato

    Sometimes I sense a little flutter.
    Like a shadow swiftly slipping by.
    Or I hear a silent, gentle murmur.
    Like a soft whisper from out the sky.

    Sometimes… I hear you call my name,
    Or clearly see your face before me.
    And I feel that you are with me still.
    Then peacefully… I come to know

    As I am thinking happy thoughts of you
    You, my son, are thinking of me too.
    Loving memories fill my aching heart.
    As dreaming dreams of what could be.

    Or might have been, if you were here.
    Until the piercing pain of losing you
    Comes tumbling down on trembling fear.
    And clearly once again I hear you say,

    “But Mom… What if I had never been.
    You could not then in LOVE remember me.”

  12. Hi Kim and Ryan,

    I’ve wanted to pick up the phone 20 times today. But keep thinking that you need space and time with your family. Please know that we are all thinking of you and wishing there was some way to make everything better. You have been embraced by your community, your family, your friends and it is an honor to know both of you. We hope today is a day full of the special memories and stories that you have shared with us about Jacob over the last year.

    Peace and blessings, hour by hour.

    Sincerely and with love,

    Cheryl and family and all the group members from H.E.A.R.T.S.

  13. Well Jacob, you have a little brother now who looks so much like you. He has and will bring back many memories of you. I look forward to each and every one of those memories. My heart still aches for you. Each day I remember so many of our times together and I still cry too easily. I love you so much as I will love little Tyler. Having the new grandchildren has brought some joy into my being again, but that part that is still there for you will always be special. Miss you an love you, Jake.

  14. Kim,
    I had breifly connected with you on Baby Center and failed to successfully contact you one-on-one and am reaching out to you here.
    As I read others’ comments, I’ve learned you’ve had a new baby. Congratulations on receiving such joy and continuing to bring more into the world.
    When you have a moment, please let me know how you’re doing, as I would love to learn more from your experience as ours are unfortunately similar.
    With love,

  15. Jacob,
    It’s almost been a year and half since you had to leave us, the hole is still so huge. You don’t know how much I miss you. Your litte brother Tyler is wonderful and I know that you two are getting along well. I can tell when you are guiding him, the minute I put him on my shoulders you told him to hold on to my hair like you did, when he sits on my knee I can see you hand guiding his onto the steering wheel. I keep trying to visualize you as you grow older, what a handsome young man you are. Thank you for looking out after us and letting us know through you actions that you are present and with us, without that feeling , I don’t know what I would do. Anyway, until we get to see you for real, we will always have you in our thoughts. Until next time.

  16. Dear Jacob, the summer has gone by so fast and it was a little dissapointing that the weather was not better. But the arrival of your new cousin and little brother are such a great joy to us. At times I could see you around the lake and at home. I know its you who is adjusting the mirrors on my work truck so that you can drive it too. Some days I forget to set them for my eyes and wonder why I have trouble seeing! Our hearts ache to hold you and you are never forgotten. I hope that you and Opa are not getting into too much trouble with all your tractor driving! We know that you two are always watching over us all and some day I will be able to smooch with you again! The hole left in my heart is filling with memories of you, but there will always be one little spot that will never fill. I miss you Jake and love you with all my heart. Aunty

  17. Happy birthday Jakey! Wow, you are three years old now and you seem to have slowed down a tad with your old age! I saw all the pictures from your birthday party at home. The looks great. We celebrated yur special day here with small cupcakes and lots of music for you to dance with. Sorry Im so slow with getting your present done. It will be something that is for your garden at the lake.Can’t wait for you to see it. We were lucky enough to be there for Ainsley birthday and you were there in our hearts.We miss you so much , but know I have two boys to smooch with! Thought you could get away with it when your brother was born! Not so! I hope you will forgive me for still crying , but you really became a big part of my life and that hole still gets to me. Have fun and dont forget me. Love you, Aunty.

  18. Soon it will be two years ago since I held you in my arms, kissed your sweet cheeks and held you with every fibre of my being. And still today I love you as much now as I did then. I ache for you everyday but I now have the strength to carry on like you would want me too. I’m so proud of the boy you were and I want you to be proud of the mom I am. Your brother has brought so much life and sunshine back into my world and i want you to know that he will grow up knowing and loving you too. You will always be my beautiful, brown eyed little man – my first born and the one who first showed me how much I could really love. Kisses and hugs and lots of love sweet baby boy! Love always and forever and ever, Mommy.

  19. To Kim and Family,

    Something changed inside of me when I found out about Jacob.

    I am grasping at words, unsure of how to make my thoughts and feelings known.

    Jacob is the sunshine we feel on our face. The vibrance in the bright blue sky. The gentleness that comes with a breeze and the strength behind the wind.

    Just… thinking of you all… sending you peace and solace on this difficult day.

    Sincerely with love,

    Elan Olson (and family)

  20. To the Little One I will never get to know. I only heard about you through the family chain of chat… It was a very sad day when I found out that I would never get to meet you..

    I have to say that those who got to be with you for the such short time you were with them, were very lucky. As my little one never had a chance to even come into this world to grace use with their smile and joy.

    So with that in mind.. I would like to share this poem with you and your family.

    Little One

    When I found out about you,
    the world seemed to be a better place
    Joy, love, happiness, confidence, hope,
    Looking forward to the things to come,
    Full of it, of the miracle.

    Elated by it, in seventh heaven,
    A wish come true
    At last.
    I dream of you for such a long time.

    You were on my mind, I wanted to share it
    With the people close to me.
    Told them as soon as I could –
    Joy, love, happiness, confidence, hope.

    The unexpected, the fear, the hope
    Over, ended before it could start.
    Hurt, pain, tears, uncertainty,
    The operation, the end.

    No more plans, no future for you.
    Cry and be comforted.
    The immense pain.
    Waiting for the time to take the edge off it.

    Carefully looking out for the future –
    The sun slowly outshines the shadow.
    Hope for a future, which you still will be a part of –

    New joy,
    New love,
    New happiness,
    New confidence,
    New hope.

  21. “If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden.”

    ~ Claudia Ghandi

    Thinking of you all today and always.


  22. Hi Jacob! Wow, it is hard to believe that you are five years old. I think of you every day and I try to imagine what you would be up to now. Your two little brothers are so cute, I can see you in them in certain actions or words. I hope Oma and Opa are not bugging you too much. Ainsley will be very busy with your new cousin soon, watch over Aunty Kerri and peanut for us. Love you with all my heart, till we meet again. Aunty

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